There must be more than this. I'm convinced of it. I haven't yet seen it with my eyes other than to read the testimonies of others, but that has only served to whet my appetite not satisfy it.
It is interesting living with dissatisfaction, and not at all comfortable. At many points I am aware of the enemies efforts to turn that towards the people and situations around me. If this is allowed to take its course I will develop a 'woe is me, the grass is always greener' perspective (I write this from personal experience) that will only bring bitterness and frustration. But, if I resist the efforts of the enemy to hijack something that God is doing in my life, this dissatisfaction will produce a growing passion for Jesus and the power of His Spirit in my life (I write this from a mix of theory and experience).
This isn't the first time I've been here. I'd love to tell you that every time went well. I can't.
Without too much difficulty I can recall times when the journey my dissatisfaction caused me to embark upon wound up going in circles in the cul-de-sac of busyness and trivia. I like what CS Lewis has to say about this:
"It would seem that Our Lord finds our desires not too strong, but too weak. We are half-hearted creatures, fooling about with drink and sex and ambition when infinite joy is offered us, like an ignorant child who wants to go on making mud pies in a slum because he cannot imagine what is meant by the offer of a holiday at the sea. We are far too easily pleased."
I talked with a couple friends today who are in a similar place as I am. God is stirring a greater hunger for more of Him in our lives, and a growing awareness of His love for us. I don't in any way consider my circumstance unique. I know that God is at work in the lives of His sons & daughters inviting us to experience His love at deeper levels.
If we all journey together, we can probably avoid a lot of cul-de-sacs.
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